they always tell you how horrible cancer is, but its so different living with it and hearing it from other people. its draining, and it sucks the life out of everyone around you.
the last 2 months of his life he was bed bond, and every week we went to visit him he always got worse, till eventually we all knew that there was nothing else to do but to wait.
there was problems after problems that kept occurring, he was completely fine before the trip back to the hospital, he was walking, gardening, eating properly, normal stuff.
then when he started his treatment again everything went downhill.
he ended up getting a stomach bug which caused him to not be able to eat for 2 weeks straight so he got weaker and skinnier, he lost so much weight in a week.. it was so scary to see.
then he started getting seizures and developed epilepsy,
then he got an eye infection
and started to rot away
my parents came to visit too, and kept telling my mum that when he gets out of the hospital when his better he will marry Dave and i.
We all left that day, and daves mum for the call in the morning that some thing went wrong.
he ended up having a bleed in his brain and was paralysed everywhere expect for his left arm.
he couldnt move his face, but he still cried a lot.
and it was so heartbreaking watching daves little sister telling her daddy to wake up.
then eventually he passed away.
deaths and funerals are always tough, but i've never had some one so close to the family pass away, and to have to deal with the mess that is left behind after death. its so much work and stress.
Well on brighter news
but i havent been able to transferre the funds yet because they changed my account number =(
anyways, i might just leave it at that, i feel it might be a tad inappropriate talking about anything else.
