Those little moments in life

So quite a lot has happened since spring sprung.
I finally changed my hair colour, not much changed, just the ends are lighter.

Dave had just started going on a diet too, since we have the money to spend a little extra on healthier foods now instead of cheaping out and resorting to eating fast food.
i might sign up for the gym again too.. might.. haha im still unsure if im that motivated, cause i could just go for a run or bike ride outside.. for free!!! Or.. use the Wii Fit Anya gave us... i donno, im still deciding..

But my point in this all, is that i made seafood marinara =D
i wanted to try and make it by scratch this time because last time i tried, it tasted like crap.
plus, its a little simple meal that Dave can eat without feeling guilty.
too bad he over ate it.. (stupid bitch, how is that a diet when u over eat 3 times the amount you're suppose to be eating!! gah..)

om nom nom..

The people around me...

I've been seeing a lot of people lately, and have been able to hang out with some of my favorite people too :)
every couple of mondays, Kyleen and i go on little lunch/shopping dates.. shes just so great, and after spending a day with Jiselle, i can officially say that i love her. she is such a blessing..
Jiselle was drinking out of a bottle and started to feed me some, then when she accidentally hurt Kyleen, Jiselle would give Kyleen kisses.. its so sweet :)

I was able to get Yumcha with Zak, Thuy and Victor. It was so nice actually talking to them in person too and getting to know them better, as well as catching up with Zak, Still the same that guy..

I've also been able to see Hairly too!
Hairly and i spent fathers day together visiting William and her step dads graves.

I cant believe its been a year already..
i thought it was going to be unbearable seeing his face there.. but when i did see him, all my anger and sadness just went away.
But I'm glad he is in a better place now.

We then visited Hairly's step dads grave..
i was so confused that day when she mentioned going to visit her dad, because i couldnt remember what special day it was.. i kept thinking it was an anniversary or something..
but it was fathers day!! felt so silly, because we were actually talking about what we got our fathers for fathers day, and i didnt even link those 2 thoughts together.

it was such a beautiful day though.. sun was so bright, weather was completely perfect, and we were visiting graves.. its just bittersweet..

We've also been visiting Dave's dad in the hospital..
and i think that's one of the hardest things I've had to face lately..
im so naive with stuff like grief, illness and loss. i keep thinking that my parents will live forever and everything will be okay. the hardest thing i ever had to face before that was knowing my fat dog didnt have much time left.. and i cried for months because i know that one day she will die.. and she did.
i still even dream about my dog..
then realising that when i wake up from that dream, i know that everything i felt in there was all a lie.. and that she was still dead.. (such an emotional dream for a dog)

But seeing Dave's dad laying there made me really sad. i started acting more like a bitch to dave.. (which is horrible) but people deal with things different..
i try to be tough and bitchy on the outside so i dont have to deal with what im actually feeling.
But this isnt even my father, nor were we close. but thats why i've tried being a little nicer to Dave too.. because as hard as im taking it now, his probably feeling worse. The great thing about Dave is that in situations like this (and williams) his really optimistic.. oddly enough.. he has more hope than i do.

i keep wishing for an answer to something like that..
keep wishing that life wasnt as cruel..
and i kept remembering the times where he was able to walk, had a full set of hair and was healthy and smiling..

Dave and i bought his dad a robe, and Dave's dad was so grateful that he doesn't let Dave's mum take the robe to wash, because silly us, we didn't wash the robe before giving it to him. (normally they wash it before using it, but we forget that the situation is different since his living at the hospital)

Dave and i also bought some Cancer Council stuff too, but Dave's dad said not to buy it cause he doesn't need toys and stuff..

it just sucks so much that we're so helpless in these situations..
I'll make another entry for this topic though.

I've also been able to see another school friend Janina!!
We went to the pet shop the other week, and saw this cute bird.. who was a male.. that thought it as nesting!! IT WAS SO CUTE!!!
And we've gotten to the food swapping point now =P
i gave her her first Zumbo macaron!! =D
It is also her birthday too!! woo!! so happy birthday to her!! i shall be seeing her hopefully tmr to give her some more macarons too :)

But speaking of swapping stuff.
i really really truely believe in the line

"One mans Trash is another mans Treasure.. "

i really do. Not just because im a horribly hoarder and have a real issue with letting things go.
but because i just hate wasting things..
So i've been giving away a lot of little things i dont need or use..

And lately, i know i've been giving stuff to the right people because i have actually gotten a lot of things in return as well :)

Debbie, my neighbor that i don't often see, have been swapping make up with me lately, its so funny because we get her little brother to bring over things for one another..

She got me this finishing powder direct from the US because i mentioned i didnt have one yet :)
But it was so sweet of her.. i really wasn't expecting anything from any  one really..

i haven't properly used it yet, because i haven't been out lately..
but when i do i shall write a small review about it.

And Anya and Loc came over almost every day of the week last week to see us after their trip to Melbourne :)
they brought us Macarons!!!
Made us some Creme Brulee
And gave us a Wii..

And lastly, the people i went to the beach with..
I felt like its been so long since i saw Ajay and Kerrie..
It was nice seeing them again..
Ajay and i had a one on one which just reminded me of our childhood so much.. i miss being able to see her every day.. every week even... but not its just so hard to see each other..
And i had some alone time with Kerrie too driving back :)
shes really grown up since i first met her...

Actually, i should mention work too.
i cant say that work is the biggest part of my life at the moment, like other people can because i only work part time, but work is a big thing..
Things have gotten so much better at work.. its almost my 3rd year there now.. and they are like my family..
i talk to my boss about every thing.. and she gives me so much advise with every thing as well. she gave me a giant pay rise, and has been so supportive with everything.
Also, been fattening me and Neaw up from all the food and sweets shes been buying us =)

So much has changed.. i've changed a lot too..
i realised i have a lot more girl friends and barely any guy friends nowadays..
i've been a lot of people lately.. but i still feel like im missing more people from my lives..!!!
i wish i were able to see every one else too, but they are always so busy!!! =( 

Sorry for the spamming and name dropping..
i guess after being in the hospital so much it makes u appreciate every little moment you get with the people you love.

P.S. Albert is the best :)

I've also deleted some people out of my lives.. (facebook... cause that is the only place i ever saw them)
There is just no room for people who are only going to bring me down.