Friday, January 25, 2013

This week on the natblog

Hello Hello..

My sleeping pattern as well as my life has been a little crazy lately. things have noticeably different now that its 2013. i mean, compared to what it was like 4 years ago..
but i guess I'm comparing things at the moment because of everything around me that actually has changed as well as those that haven't.
but i'll get to that later.

i managed to get some things done from my list i posted up last time, so i thought i'd go through it, which is also a reminder for me to finish off my list as well.

- Fix Hairly's clothes 
i must get to that soon!!!
- Make some dress designs and actually make the dresses!!!
I actually finally made something, not that it took much effort or time. but golly, it finally happened..
i made a maxi skirt with a slit.. i made the one of the left first, then my friend asked me to make her one so i made her the black one.
something completely simple and something i would wear very often..
man i love maxi stuff.. its feels so free..

- Draw that picture of Miranda Kerr i've been eyeing
not yet :(
- Edit the photos from ALL the nights we went out shooting
DONE AND DONE =) as well as my other shoot i had last monday
- Join the gym.. and actually go..
i found other sports and activities i could do as well instead of just the gym, so maybe i might not need a membership in the end.
- Save up for car service and rego
Finally got my car serviced! now it doesnt sound sick :) but i have rego due in a couple of short months
- Save up for every ones birthdays.. and then.. find some thing they will like =(
I've asked all my friends boyfriends, and some of them themselves what they would like...
gifts are so expensive :(
- Save up for Davies birthday and organise a little dinner for him.
sighh.. at least i know where we're going?? thats about it.
- Make cosplay
gotta figure out what i want to cosplay as.. that isnt angelwomon.. man that will be hard.
- Apply for tafe/collage/apprenticeships
Done! i've attended a design collage's open night last night, and it sounds very promising. but i need to call them back to get some more information about certain stuff.

- catch up with more people i havent seen in a while
- write down my wishlist
Half way there. so far i've got a lot of camera stuff i want.

1) Remote for me camera (during the time of writing this list, Dave had already gotten it for me)
2) Proper Ring flash with a stand (nooo idea where to get that.. maybe Asia/America?)
3) Canon EF 24-105mm f/4.0 L lens ($800-1k)
4) Waterproof housing for the 5D ($2k)
5) GoPro Hero3 Black edition and the accessories ($400+)
6) Training gloves
7) Vash's glasses from trigun!!! 
8) The clow book
9) the dark knight rises cat women head gear
10) Canon EF 50mm f/1.2 L lens (1.2k)

But there are a lot more to add to it. although this is just one of those "if only" lists.. lol

- SAVE!!!! :( 
lol, i keep spending from my savings!!! :(!! THATS NOT SAVING AT ALL!

Bahh.. but i guess i can still pat myself on the back for this weeks efforts because i also got a lot more done this week.

On Monday i had my first paid shoot this year for the "Terry Romanio Project"

They are the most loveliest bunch of boys. You can really see how passionate they are in music by just being around them.

but being around them has really opened my eyes to the types of people i should be around compared to everyone that i was around.
and that i keep putting myself in situations with people that don't actually appreciate me for the real things.

i mean, i guess thats why im such a negative person around... i mean, there isnt a need to bitch about people if i actually had great people around me.
But i guess i've already gotten rid of most of the people in my life that weren't worth it.

even though the photo shoot was the biggest thing i did that day i still got a lot of other things done too :)
I was able to contact centerlink about an issue, made the first skirt, had dinner with Dave's family and hung out with Dave a little as well :)

Tuesday i was able to hang out with my workmate Neaw out of work! =D
we went to get yumcha, went to cabramatta to buy stuff, then we went rock climbing!
i have not been in more than 7 years.. 7!! gosh that makes me feel so old o_O..

it was a very very good work out. we're hoping to go as much as we can, because its not expensive, it works out the whole body, and its fun! :)

i think the only down side if all the weird cramps you get in the muscles you didn't even know existed.. haha
and hurting ur lady parts.. HAHAHA!!
the harnest isn't a fan of crotches..

i also have very suss bruises too... they look like i got them doing very dirty things.. hahah

After we had finished, we went to spotlight to get material for the black skirt.
i saw that the dress makers mannequins were on sale..!!!
i want one!! someone get me it!! :( i cant because i have to save.. but someone else can buy it for me?? =D
but going to spot light made me realise i need to keep up to date with my measurements, Bust, waist and hips.. 30'' 26'' 36''? i donno, but it makes a difference when buying patterns.

I ended up making the skirt and giving it to her that day.
my plans were cancelled that evening, so i was able to hang out with Davie that night :)

Weds i ended up sleeping till i started work. lol.. 18 hours of sleep.
but i stayed up late editing the photos from the shoot from monday

Thursday i only had 2 hours of sleep and couldn't get back to sleep because i had things to do and got distracted watching youtube videos. i got so addicted to a crude mini series called "the most popular girls in school

after getting my car serviced kerrie steve and i went to the pools :)
it had been a while since we went to the pools as well! about a year or 2? im not even sure any more.
we got tired and hungry early, so we only stayed at the pools an hour.. but man, an hour already got me tanned -_-'' why!!!
we went to visit jenny at Pho76 :) and she shouted us all lunch there

Then when i got home and ready, dave took me to the city to go to the open day at CATC design collage.

i cant waitttt to start! =D sorta.. hahaha its horribly expensive..
Everytime i am in the city, i keep loving it more and more..

We've got such a beautiful city.
cant help be feel like tourists.. haha

Anyways, thats only half my week.. i shall try to blog more later.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Same Love

This song always makes me want to cry my eyes out..
i know how it feels like to be something you cant change that you would rather die than deal with it..
so i feel so strongly about this song.

its about time some one openly talked about it..

"Same Love"
(with Ryan Lewis)
(feat. Mary Lambert)

When I was in the third grade I thought that I was gay
‘Cause I could draw, my uncle was, and I kept my room straight
I told my mom tears rushing down my face
She’s like “Ben you've loved girls since before pre-k tripping,”
Yeah, I guess she had a point, didn’t she?
Bunch of stereotypes all in my head.
I remember doing the math like, “Yeah, I’m good at little league”
A preconceived idea of what it all meant
For those that liked the same sex
Had the characteristics
The right wing conservatives think it’s a decision
And you can be cured with some treatment and religion
Man made rewiring of a predisposition
Playing god, aw nah here we go
America the brave still fears what we don’t know
And god loves all his children, is somehow forgotten
But we paraphrase a book written thirty-five-hundred years ago
I don’t know

And I can’t change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
I can't change
Even if I try
Even if I wanted to
My love
My love
My love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm

If I was gay, I would think hip-hop hates me
Have you read the YouTube comments lately
"Man, that’s gay" gets dropped on the daily
We become so numb to what we’re saying
A culture founded from oppression
Yet we don’t have acceptance for ‘em
Call each other faggots behind the keys of a message board
A word rooted in hate, yet our genre still ignores it
Gay is synonymous with the lesser
It’s the same hate that’s caused wars from religion
Gender to skin color, the complexion of your pigment
The same fight that led people to walk outs and sit ins
It’s human rights for everybody, there is no difference!
Live on and be yourself
When I was at church they taught me something else
If you preach hate at the service those words aren’t anointed
That holy water that you soak in has been poisoned
When everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless
Rather than fighting for humans that have had their rights stolen
I might not be the same, but that’s not important
No freedom till we’re equal, damn right I support it

And I can’t change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
My love
My love
My love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm

We press play, don’t press pause
Progress, march on
With the veil over our eyes
We turn our back on the cause
Till the day that my uncles can be united by law
When kids are walking ‘round the hallway plagued by pain in their heart
A world so hateful some would rather die than be who they are
And a certificate on paper isn’t gonna solve it all
But it’s a damn good place to start
No law is gonna change us
We have to change us
Whatever god you believe in
We come from the same one
Strip away the fear
Underneath it’s all the same love
About time that we raised up

And I can’t change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
I can't change
Even if I try
Even if I wanted to
My love
My love
My love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
Love is patient
Love is kind
Love is patient
Love is kind
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is kind
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is kind
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is kind
(I‘m not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
Love is kind

Photos from the sunrise

Soo these are from the shoot we did the other morning.. woo to all nighters

i didnt like how most of my photos came out because the filters we used were blurry, and it shows on the camera, but i guess also, mainly because we didnt move around enough, so all the photos looked the same.
But for a place that is so polluted and gross, the photos all showed how much beauty Chipping Norton lake still has.

Stargazing with ur best friends must have been one of the greatest experience i've had lately, it was so nice to be outside at that time enjoying the world.
we all saw shooting stars too, the one i saw exploded.. lol!!

Morning rose and we started to take photos for the this weeks photo project from my other blog Picture4picture :)
The difference the filters make.
Just so everyone knows, All the photos the professionals take are completely edited in one way or another :) weather its manually on site like using different filters, using props or tools or at home with all the different photo editing programs out there.
Even film photos can be edited too! but you have to know how to use the dark room properly to do that.

Unless stated otherwise

Thursday, January 17, 2013

too many things to do and not enough motivated time to do it in..

My list of things i have to do soon!
- Fix Hairly's clothes
- Make some dress designs and actually make the dresses!!! THERE IS SO MUCH FABRIC IN MY ROOM O_O
- Draw that picture of Miranda Kerr i've been eyeing
- Edit the photos from ALL the nights we went out shooting
- Join the gym.. and actually go..
- Save up for car service and rego
- Save up for every ones birthdays.. and then.. find some thing they will like =(
- Save up for Davies birthday and organise a little dinner for him.
- Make cosplay
- Apply for tafe/collage/apprenticeships
- catch up with more people i havent seen in a while
- write down my wishlist
- SAVE!!!! :(

and blog more..

Mann.... i wish i had more time, or hated sleep.. that would make every thing a little more easier

the past 2 days have been so crazy!!!
i feel like i've done so much in the past 2 days.... so much that i barely remember much of what happened..

i was able to see my lovely friend Hairly :)

and while we were there, i bumped into these guys!
it was sooo nice to catch up with every one again

ajay came by and we went shopping.
and i bought myself a butt load of healthy yet disgusting coconut water... i also bought one popper from another brand of coconut water and regretting not getting the other brand, it actually tasted like coconut juice.. instead of this crap. wtf man.
but the reason for my coconut spending spree.. i dont have a very good reason sides the fact that its healthier than soft drinks and has some more flavour than water.
thought if i was thirsty enough i just drink this instead :)

and if u think its stupid to buy something that tastes like pee, well.. i guess ur right.. hahaha..

anyways, after lana came we went to get moochi for dave, hung out with him for a bit, drank tea, watched some anime, then went to Chipping Norton lake to take photos... at 2am..

to take photos like that =)
i shall upload some more photos soon, i haven't been able to look through them properly, and then re-size them down.. *sigh sigh*

Anyways, we stayed there till 7am and went home to make 'our' midnight snack before we slept.

We woke up at 5pm afterwards and went for a work out.
we were suppose to go to the gym but they didnt let us have a free membership trial. so we just walked through the park. which was actually a benefit, it was so beautiful.. and crowded!
we reminised about our past and did some work out on the park gym equipment.

After dinner.. which ended at 11pm, we went to drive around at aldi and bummed there for a while..
we then saw tim and we stayed there talking till 3am.

we then went home and played wii and guitar hero till 7am..

Went to bed, then i went to work and now im here..


i seriously have no idea when i was ever able to manage having time to blog.
time seriously seems to slip by me so fast.
maybe i have too many projects on my hands??

Anyways, so i launched my little photo project :)

i wanted to do this ages ago, a couple years ago actually.. but i never managed to get everything together..
although there wasn't a lot of work that had to be put into it, i just needed help wording things and organising my thoughts out loud.
But i finally did it! with the help of Ajay and Lana :) yayy.. bfff

although its still the beginning and we did launch it late, i dont have enough partisipants to join in..
but in due time i guess..

ANYWAYS! im not going to re-read my entry and edit my spelling mistakes..
i dont have enough time :(

i dont know how i would be able to manage my life and a fulltime career/study.. bah..

Monday, January 14, 2013


Bahh, i keep telling myself that i should sit the f*ck down on my computer chair, and start typing out my blog entry...
But again, i've been delaying everything, and postponing EVERYTHING!
i think i cancelled on almost all my plans i've made in the past couple of days because all i kept wanting to do lately is dream...

But i thought today will be different..
i will sit down, open up my blog, edit down some photos, and write about how things have been since we've hit 2013..

I guess im still a little bit shocked that its 2013.. well not a little bit.. but like.. in crazy hibernation mode shocked that its 2013.. 
Every year that goes by makes me feel so weird...

Anyways, enough about with my crazy rabblings, i guess i'll just add photos and captions,
cheaters way of blogging ;)
On new years eve, i was actually able to take the day off, its been the first time in years that i had the new years eve off, so we decided to go to the beach :)
I told my brother about our plans and he decided to join too.
he then told all his friends and we all ended up with 3 cars full of people
And here are our photos from our little trip there.
We had traveled to 4 beaches that day and snorkeled, but we didnt see much.

Because our trip there wasnt 100% satisfying, we decided to go again the following sat :)
This time instead of going to all the other beaches, we stuck at plantation point.

After coming home the beach that day we went over to sheilas place to celebrate kyleens 23rd birthday, and to see sheila! since she had moved back to Qld.
Mannn i love these girlys, they are such amazing people.
we ended up staying there till 3am!! it was so great. i hate that we cant do this that often because everyone has such different lives.

man, i've done so much lately, but i seriously can not be bothered typing it down :(

But i will leave you with my new years resolution.

- Draw more
- Take more photos
- Be more healthier
- Be more creative
- Love more, hate less
- Stop buying heels.. lol..
- Finish a course of some sort
- Travel overseas

And the one i didnt attempt last year, Learn sign language

Chao for now =)